a weight has lifted

the papers have been handed in, the presentations have been made and my stress level has decreased. it has been a tough week! i get a small break this weekend but need to start up again for two final papers. tonight i have a nanny interview and plan to do nothing school related. hopefully my interview goes well, if not rachael patterson works for a family who will be needing someone when she graduates in a few weeks. so i could be working next month instead of sitting around waiting for kids to get out of school after my wedding - how boring would that be? i've noticed this week how many people ask me how wedding plans are going. i mean yes that is a part of my life and for a small talk topic it works. but if each person only knew how many others ask me the same question (in the same day mind you) they may rethink their asking. i think i noticed it because i put wedding plans on hold this week so i could get school work done, and i'm sure my being stressed to the max contributed to my irritation towards the question. or perhaps it was the fact that lately i have felt invisible in many areas of my life (birthday party, caretaker, group projects and more). i felt the wedding question was all they could ask me because they know nothing else about me except that i have a ring on my finger. would someone please take the time to know more about me? to ask new questions? or just listen when i've share about my life?! i now realize how my dad must feel sometimes - my mom can be very dominating in a conversation, but my dad will make a funny or witty remark that no one will hear. i love to hear them, but now i wonder if he feels invisible like i do. i mean we are little people (in size) but does that mean others can't hear us? i don't get it.