the end is near

monday i turn in my portfolio and have a mock interview with professors and community teachers. then all i have to do is walk the line friday afternoon and it's official - i will be a college grad. still seems unreal. hasn't really hit me yet. maybe it's because i'm having a hard time with the whole thing. my girlfriends from high school mostly finished on time so they're out in the real world already. i also feel like i hardly know anyone graduating. it's not like high school when i could put a face with every name in the program. i've become so alienated from campus the past two years that i only know a handful of people. also, i think it's kind of hard knowing i won't have any family here on the big day. i understand it's expensive to make the trip and i didn't think it would bother me, but as it approaches, it gets tougher. on a happier note, i am waiting to hear back about my interview. i was proud of myself for using my portfolio (what i had done at the time) and for feeling comfortable. well...i was comfortable a few questions after i totally answered a question wrong!!! hehe. i was nervous and didn't understand what they were asking so i talked about cooperative learning. come to find out they ment collaboration with teachers. but i had things in my portfolio to show for both of them. other than that, i felt like it was a good interview, but you just never know.

baccalaureate

just a little behind

my life has been one bunch of craziness. after a relaxing spring break it got right back into being action packed. let's recap shall we? 1. i taught the 27 kindergarteners full time for two weeks. they progressively got worse until i created a new management plan for my last day. every day i woke up and fought back tears because i disliked it so much. 2. i sent out resumes and applied for real jobs!!! i have my first interview on monday for dakota academy which is a brand new charter school grades 6-12. i really want it too! 3. i'm trying to finish my portfolio quickly (a week early) so i can have it for my interview. today i think i spent a total of 9 hours on it! 4. i had my first meeting for my missions trip to argentina this week. i met my team for the first time and i can't wait to get to know them even better. 5. i'm actually going to graduate! it seems so unreal right now. it hasn't hit me even though my cap and gown are lying on the floor next to me right now. i haven't even taken them out of the bag. i wish i could be excited about it. well...that will do for now. i'm sick of the computer i need another break.

joy in the little things

this week has been so good for me. no stress. no children. no worries. today as i drove to the chiropractor appointment no one in the office showed up for, i had lots of time to think and enjoy life. i was listening to music i haven't put in the cd player in ages. it's my "folks with guitars" mix. it had stuff i listened to back in middle school and high school repeatedly. of course i still knew all the words - how could i forget when i was disciplined to learn all of the words within the first week of owning a cd back then? oh to have that kind of time these days! it reminded me of the joy i had then and how much fun life was. every song somehow spoke to me, encouraged me, made me think, and got me smiling. along with my music, the sun was out and the grass if finally green again! i must suffer from seasonal affective disorder. the weather totally affects my mood. all in all...it was a good day. i have to remember to find joy in little things like green grass, good music and singing in the car. funny how several of the songs on my cd were about the "little things".

little old lady who?

spring break

day 3 of no school. i love it!! i'm working a little on my portfolio every day, and eventually i will finish planning my two weeks of teaching coming up. but i'm taking full advantage of break time. well..i will admit i've done running around to doctor appointments a lot, which is a bit not vacation like. i took birthday money and splurged on a hair cut. i usually go the the aveda institute and have my hair done for $12. but they can really only do what i tell them. they're not so creative you know? so i went downtown to a juut salon and payed a whopping $50!! but DANG it was worth it. who knew a hair cut could be so fantastic? perhaps i should wait on that comment until i've styled it myself. and after that splurge i still have money left over. i'm liking being a part of nick's family. lol. they're generous on the giving :) i don't even know what to do with it. so many options. i haven't had money to spend just on me for a long time. it always pays the bills. this really should go to the bills, but i refuse :) as part of my break i spent the morning on facebook looking up folks from my high school. does anyone else have a hard time asking the "popular" kids from your school to be your friend? i feel like they weren't my friend then, why would they like me now? when really they probably don't care AND it's not like we have to hang out this weekend. maybe it's the fear they won't remember me. or perhaps that usually they're boys i had a crush on then. anyway - i asked a few to be my friend and it was a bit scary. haha. it's pretty stupid i know. but i had a good laugh over it.

happy early birthday to me

so after much "demanding" (in nick's words) i recieved my present early. we had gone last weekend to look at phones and i found the one i wanted. nick told me he was getting it and the week long wait was killing me!!! i kept asking for it and i pretty much drove him nuts. i ruined my suprise by asking for it again yesterday when he called to tell me dinner plans. poor wonderful man had driven all around town during his lunch break to find one! after tricking me into thinking no one had any and that i'd have to wait two weeks, he brought it into the room to me. *sigh* he still managed to suprise me!! what is it you ask? tada! a phone/pocket pc/mp3 player/camera oh how i love it!!