fun filled friday

i feel like i'm getting old. last night when nick asked what i wanted to do i decided i just wanted to be home. we ended up playing scrabble and listening to old christian music. we put in the 1996 WOW cd (for those of you who grew up listening to christain music) and were laughing at songs we remember "rocking out" to. they were not hard at all. then when a petra song came on we had a little moment remembering the "good ol' petra". come to find out nick had one of their cds from 1979!!! ( i did not realize they were that old!) he dug that out along with like 5 other cds of theirs and we flipped through the songs listening to them as they evolved. talk about an exciting night! haha. today is planning for my poetry unit, working on a correspondence class, and cleaning the house. i'm not looking forward to it all that much. when did my life become so bland and boring? last weekend i pulled out my picture boxes which go back to middle school. i was always with a big group of people, being goofy and dressing up a lot actually :) what happend to that? is it because i'm in a different stage of my life now that a few close friends is what i need instead of a big group to just be loud and obnoxious with? or have i pushed people away and become a hermit? honestly sometimes i feel better being alone. but then later i complain that i have no friends to do things with. i'm not sure what it is, but i'd like to be fun again.